“Can the child within my heart rise above?.....Can I sail through the changin' ocean tides?”

 

Landslide

Fleetwood Mac

 

Well let’s just dive in!

 Yesterday, my daughter signed her student loans- they are stupid- like the debt these kids have to go into to get an education is insanity! My poor baby turned 18 and the next day took out her first loan!  I know she is going to be successful, she’s just that type of person, she’s always been so independent and driven, I know I’m her mom but damn, she’s wicked smatt and beauty- not just her mom on that one people will literally stop her to tell her she’s beautiful since birth!  I am so incredibly blessed to have her in my life, she makes me proud every day in some way and her sense of humor is razor sharp and keeps me on my toes!  My apartment is trashed with all the stuff we are getting for the dorm, it's really like moving into your first apartment, plus its summer so we have fans out so that takes up extra space in our already cramped spot- ha she said she’s ready for dorm life thanks to our ‘crappy apartment’ ahhhh teens they know just what to say! I am going to miss her so much when she leaves, I really have built my life up around her and when she’s not here to cater too, I guess I will have start looking at myself to see who I am without her, not that I won’t see her she will be an hour away but won’t be the same that’s for sure.

 Called my mom on the way to work this morning as usual, got to talk to my dad for a few minutes but he didn’t know who I was, that kills me every time, the man I have loved more than anyone, doesn’t know who I am somedays, but hey he’s been married to my mom 51 years and sometimes calls her ‘that woman’ Alzheimer’s is rough kids! My Dad was so mechanically inclined, he could fix anything, he was a lousy lefthanded carpenter but give him machinery and he was going to figure it out, and now he struggles to put the batteries in the remote. 

 Working two jobs, packing my kid up for college, juggling being mom, sister, daughter, cousin, niece, aunt, friend, does anyone else hear circus music? ☺ 

 

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