“Somebody save me, me from myself…”

 

Jelly Roll

 

TGIF Campers!

 Yesterday I got out of work a little early to rush home and meet my BFF to go meet our other friends and head to Great Woods- Ok it called something else now, but it will ALWAYS be Great Woods in my heart- to see Busta Rhymes and 50 Cent.  I’ve seen both artists before so knew it was going to be a good show and they did not disappoint! Got there early enough to do a little light tailgating, Amanda and I have seen over 200 shows together so we have a pretty good routine of what is a light weekday tailgating versus what we do on a weekend for a full tailgating night.  So many people came out of the wood work for this show, I was running into family and friends I hadn’t seen in a while, literally I was cutting through the parking lot to hit the port a potty and look to my left and my cousin Alina was pulling in – that is the thing about me that I should tell you up front if you don’t know me, my Dad is one of 14 kids and my Mom is one of 11; so when I tell you I have 100 first cousins- that’s real talk not even talking 2nd cousins or 3rd cousins and now some 4th cousins lol we are Irish, we drink and we make beautiful babies and the majority of us all stay local to RI. I had people reaching out to me all day like I work at the venue, asking me questions – I might as well get a job there at this point!

 This is the second year in a row my BFF/Amanda and I got lawn passes, $239 for all but 2 concerts at our favorite summer venue, hard to pass up, but weeks like this where there are three shows back-to-back, damn we are clocking in like a job! I am 49, and this morning as I sit here typing this, I got about 5 hours of sleep before I had to come to the office, only to work and immediately go back to the venue for another concert, and then tomorrow still to come….I am considering if I am getting too old for this….naaaaaaaaaaa…..I got this! My absolute favorite thing to do is be at a concert with a group of people singing the same song, loving it for all our own reasons, just enjoying that moment- priceless!  I love that I have been able to share that love with my daughter, took her to her first concert when she was 10 and now, she goes whenever she can, that means so much to me, to share that!   

 29 days till my baby goes to college, I can’t even begin to imagine how that is going to feel, my eyes water up and my chest gets tight just thinking about her being away from me and taking this step to start her own life.  I think I have given her the tools to be successful in life but also have given her a bit of dysfunction growing up with a single mom, no dad and hey the struggle is real some days though I did try to shield her from anything that I could.  I don’t think she realizes how much I cater to her, but she’s gonna learn and maybe she will appreciate me a little more!  My friends and family have been telling me for years to do more for myself and not make it all about K and I definitely do things for myself, hello concert season, but I have always made K the priority and even after a few relationships where guys wanted me but not necessarily my child, I shut that down completely, I always wanted K to know she came first, and she still does but as she goes out into the world to find her path, I now need to put me first and find my path….both of those things scare me silly!

 

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